The fire and the rose

For a long time now, I’ve tried to sit down and write. I slowly begin to hit the keys and magic up black letters onto this artificial piece of paper but everything fades into slow-motion, my mind fogs with hesitation and I withdraw from the keyboard. It feels like the blank, empty space is goading me, taunting me, offering an indication of the railing self-criticism that would appear should I ever produce any text of length.

I don’t know what I’m doing.

I don’t know how long I’ve felt this way.

I miss the sense of adventure and possibility that used to come with the construction of the first words and sentences. I long for those days of seeming opportunity and evident naivety when I walked through the campus library amidst ever-growing walls of books – a welcome maze of literary exploits to wilfully lose myself in. Those days spent stretched upon the bed of youth fantasising of the imagined soft embrace of the outstretched arms of the ‘real world’. I used to yearn for a routine, for a sense of responsibility and that elusive state of ‘adulthood’. But my dreams of financial independence and playful sociability were at odds with the realities of life at the bottom of the career ladder in the world of fashion and surface-level artistic freedom. I don’t want to appear self-absorbed and self-entitled but the young dreamer and one-time-optimist in me thought that anything would be possible with determination, intelligence, resourcefulness and artistic flair. I didn’t plan for a series of challenges, setbacks, and career (and mental and emotional) meltdowns. Such is the plight of the millennial – or at least that’s what the articles seem to say. My generation believes that it is special. That it is unique. But how can we be a mass of individually unique and special people? That defies the very definition of the term. With an ambitious sprawl of twenty-somethings now crawling ever closer to the dreaded 3-0 we’re each struggling to stamp out a path and polish off a sense of identity. But who are we?

Who am I?

Who are you?

I had thought that by 25 I would be well on my way to being a ‘fully-formed’ adult, merrily ticking off the boxes on my life and career bucket list. But instead I feel like I’m regressing to a childish state of fear and I desire nothing more than an endless pit of sand to bury my head in.

I don’t know what I’m doing.

I don’t know who I am.

Or at least I don’t know how to become the person I always thought I was or would be.

Apr 8
What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?
Style Crush: Harley Viera Newton
Amongst the sea of famous figures wearing ludicrously priced, off the runway looks, it’s refreshing to see someone with a true style identity that effortlessly translates from the red carpet to the everyday. I have a growing obsession with ‘cutesy’ vintage dresses, peter pan collars (dork collars as the bf has whimsically named them) and shirts, so Newton’s look is pure fashion porn to me. She’s also sporting an enviable mane of Haim-esque super long hair.
Feb 19

Style Crush: Harley Viera Newton

Amongst the sea of famous figures wearing ludicrously priced, off the runway looks, it’s refreshing to see someone with a true style identity that effortlessly translates from the red carpet to the everyday. I have a growing obsession with ‘cutesy’ vintage dresses, peter pan collars (dork collars as the bf has whimsically named them) and shirts, so Newton’s look is pure fashion porn to me. She’s also sporting an enviable mane of Haim-esque super long hair.

Feb 18

Conrad Roset illustrations. 

I love the raw, unfinished look of each image. The carefree pops of colour. The uninhibited presentation of women.

(Source: conradroset.com)

Feb 18

40 minutes of pure beauty in music.  Tender at times, blissfully serene in others, heavy with emotion and wonderfully light.

Arcade Fire’s score for Her - A Spike Jonze love story

Jan 30

Completely entranced by the soulful and delicate melodies of these sisters. 

Lily & Madeleine

Tiny Desk concerts are also amazing sessions of in-office acoustic performances.

Nov 29

SixLee S/S 2014 x Ernesto Artillo Lookbook

Nov 29

What better song and video for a Friday than this feel-good tune by the ever stylish Pharrell

Heavy metal. Maybe the Met Gala brought out the inner rebel of fashion? Or has the renamed Saint Laurent heralded a new wave of grunge glamour? Either way, jewellery is amplified and coverage is maximised - this is not a time for minimalism.
Nov 25

Heavy metal. Maybe the Met Gala brought out the inner rebel of fashion? Or has the renamed Saint Laurent heralded a new wave of grunge glamour? Either way, jewellery is amplified and coverage is maximised - this is not a time for minimalism.

Colour inspiration - tonal colour shades in resin and wood. Japanese architect Jo Nagasaka’s designs for Established & Sons. On show as part of the London Design Festival.
Nov 18

Colour inspiration - tonal colour shades in resin and wood. Japanese architect Jo Nagasaka’s designs for Established & Sons. On show as part of the London Design Festival.

Nov 17

For all those who’ve dreamed of a Kerouac style American road trip - it is possible. Jack and Jill did it.

Beauty crush: Lily Collins
From gothic berry lips and ear cuffs to soft waves and shades of coral, Lily has a refreshingly experimental approach to hair and beauty.
Nov 12

Beauty crush: Lily Collins

From gothic berry lips and ear cuffs to soft waves and shades of coral, Lily has a refreshingly experimental approach to hair and beauty.

Nov 7

The incredible, infectiously loveable, brilliant and comic Greta Gerwig in a live music video for Arcade Fire ‘Afterlife’ at the YouTube Music Awards

Feeling inspired by Olivia Palermo/Kate Bosworth and Elizabeth Olsen to maybe try out a light caramel/honey brunette/blonde shade with highlights for winter…
Nov 5

Feeling inspired by Olivia Palermo/Kate Bosworth and Elizabeth Olsen to maybe try out a light caramel/honey brunette/blonde shade with highlights for winter…

Oct 23

Song obsession: Lorde ‘Tennis Court’